Mikasa holds what she did close to her chest; she knows it was the right thing to do, to save her friends and the people she loves, but the weight of that cost bears down on her all the same. It makes her want to cry still, thinking about how it felt in that one single moment, doing the worst thing she had ever done to her own heart. Sitting here, in front of Levi, she's not sure how to voice it.
It's not as if they really had that kind of relationship, even if they supported one another in their roles. Levi - the captain - wasn't the kind of man you went to if you needed a shoulder to cry on, and she never really needed one before.
Reaching out, she touches her teacup, finger tracing the shape of the rim before she nods her head. ]
It's been a long time for me. Longer than even Hange.
[ Because Mikasa knows what happened to them all. She bears the weight of that knowledge. ]
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Mikasa holds what she did close to her chest; she knows it was the right thing to do, to save her friends and the people she loves, but the weight of that cost bears down on her all the same. It makes her want to cry still, thinking about how it felt in that one single moment, doing the worst thing she had ever done to her own heart. Sitting here, in front of Levi, she's not sure how to voice it.
It's not as if they really had that kind of relationship, even if they supported one another in their roles. Levi - the captain - wasn't the kind of man you went to if you needed a shoulder to cry on, and she never really needed one before.
Reaching out, she touches her teacup, finger tracing the shape of the rim before she nods her head. ]
It's been a long time for me. Longer than even Hange.
[ Because Mikasa knows what happened to them all. She bears the weight of that knowledge. ]
Do you want me to tell you?