[ The awful, terrible truth is that Levi both can and can't imagine that frenetic need. The fear that if you stop everything catches up, and then it's just rage or pain or a void or all three at once, all cancelling each other out in terrible paralysis. At least with movement there can be the sensation of going forward, even if you're just spinning your wheels.
But Levi has more experience, is better at shoving things into their boxes to be handled when the time comes. He also doesn't have the jumbled mess of memories, the confusion of what is truth and what is real constantly at war in his brain. There's so much about Eren he simply doesn't and never will be able to understand.
His hands stay in place until Eren decides to pull away, and even then, Levi doesn't quite let him go. Not until Eren does first.
...and then that hole in his chest opens up even deeper.
For a few seconds, he isn't even sure what Eren is asking; the emptiness? The harrowing sorrow? The frenzied anger? It oddly feels dangerous, as though if he answers ambiguously that he risks encouraging the wrong thing.
But to deny any of them would just be a lie.
Levi just looks at Eren, with sadness that seems older than the world. ]
...Yeah.
[ A simple, soft answer, thumbing a tear away from his cheek. ]
TY FOR YOUR PATIENCE
But Levi has more experience, is better at shoving things into their boxes to be handled when the time comes. He also doesn't have the jumbled mess of memories, the confusion of what is truth and what is real constantly at war in his brain. There's so much about Eren he simply doesn't and never will be able to understand.
His hands stay in place until Eren decides to pull away, and even then, Levi doesn't quite let him go. Not until Eren does first.
...and then that hole in his chest opens up even deeper.
For a few seconds, he isn't even sure what Eren is asking; the emptiness? The harrowing sorrow? The frenzied anger? It oddly feels dangerous, as though if he answers ambiguously that he risks encouraging the wrong thing.
But to deny any of them would just be a lie.
Levi just looks at Eren, with sadness that seems older than the world. ]
...Yeah.
[ A simple, soft answer, thumbing a tear away from his cheek. ]