Finnick watches as Levi transforms, the muscles in his neck going taut, his gaze hardening, his tone dark and intense. It's actually alarming. Finnick suddenly feels a bit guilty; they came here to relax, and then Finnick said something that made Levi more riled up than he's ever seen him. It was an accident, but part of him feels like he shouldn't have said that, that he should have hidden it like he does with most people, most of the time.
It's also alarming because despite how fucked up it all is, it's just... Something Finnick had to deal with, something that's considered normal in his world. He learned how to survive, how to cope, what parts of himself to harden to prevent it from hurting so much.
However, there's still the very broken part of him that hurts about this every single day. There's still a part of him that feels deep shame, self loathing, and worthlessness, due to being treated like he was only good for someone else's entertainment, being treated not as a full human but rather an object to be played with or watched.
Levi's anger speaks to that part of him, implicitly saying it's not you, it's them. They're the ones who have done something wrong, something completely unforgivable and unjustifiable. It wasn't a deficiency of Finnick's that made them treat him so poorly, it was their own selfishness and greed, their lack of regard for their fellow humans just because they grew up less wealthy. They're the ones who should feel ashamed.
He touches his fingertips gently to Levi's temple and pushes them backward through his hair. His brows are drawn together in concern for Levi's anger, but his gaze is vulnerable. No matter what Finnick does to mask it, there is still a child inside of him that wants to be saved, to be protected from the horrors of the world. Protected by someone like Levi, who would cut down anyone who mistreated him. That child feels present in his mind now, and a glimpse of that young Finnick might even be visible in aquamarine eyes. Levi is angry the way that someone should have been angry for him over a decade ago, and though it's late, it still means something to him.
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Finnick watches as Levi transforms, the muscles in his neck going taut, his gaze hardening, his tone dark and intense. It's actually alarming. Finnick suddenly feels a bit guilty; they came here to relax, and then Finnick said something that made Levi more riled up than he's ever seen him. It was an accident, but part of him feels like he shouldn't have said that, that he should have hidden it like he does with most people, most of the time.
It's also alarming because despite how fucked up it all is, it's just... Something Finnick had to deal with, something that's considered normal in his world. He learned how to survive, how to cope, what parts of himself to harden to prevent it from hurting so much.
However, there's still the very broken part of him that hurts about this every single day. There's still a part of him that feels deep shame, self loathing, and worthlessness, due to being treated like he was only good for someone else's entertainment, being treated not as a full human but rather an object to be played with or watched.
Levi's anger speaks to that part of him, implicitly saying it's not you, it's them. They're the ones who have done something wrong, something completely unforgivable and unjustifiable. It wasn't a deficiency of Finnick's that made them treat him so poorly, it was their own selfishness and greed, their lack of regard for their fellow humans just because they grew up less wealthy. They're the ones who should feel ashamed.
He touches his fingertips gently to Levi's temple and pushes them backward through his hair. His brows are drawn together in concern for Levi's anger, but his gaze is vulnerable. No matter what Finnick does to mask it, there is still a child inside of him that wants to be saved, to be protected from the horrors of the world. Protected by someone like Levi, who would cut down anyone who mistreated him. That child feels present in his mind now, and a glimpse of that young Finnick might even be visible in aquamarine eyes. Levi is angry the way that someone should have been angry for him over a decade ago, and though it's late, it still means something to him.