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[ There's a softer quality to his voice. ]
...I'm sorry.
[ It's a worry they all have to live with, but Levi is especially sorry that Dolph has to experience this pain so soon. ]
Take what you want. I'll get the others to help move out the rest.
[ Having to handle that sort of thing on top of missing someone...there's no reason for Dolph to have to do it all himself. Unimportant things can be redistributed back into the community. ]
Have you slept much?
...I'm sorry.
[ It's a worry they all have to live with, but Levi is especially sorry that Dolph has to experience this pain so soon. ]
Take what you want. I'll get the others to help move out the rest.
[ Having to handle that sort of thing on top of missing someone...there's no reason for Dolph to have to do it all himself. Unimportant things can be redistributed back into the community. ]
Have you slept much?
No.
I keep thinking about . . . how we're both dead. No, that we were both unsure about it. Being dead. And he still had things he wanted to do.
[ was he happy? being with dolph? he likes to think so. but he thought that about alex too. ultimately, there will be larger commitments. whatever happiness dolph provides is paltry to that. ]
I just hope it isn't what he thought. That it's . . . better.
I keep thinking about . . . how we're both dead. No, that we were both unsure about it. Being dead. And he still had things he wanted to do.
[ was he happy? being with dolph? he likes to think so. but he thought that about alex too. ultimately, there will be larger commitments. whatever happiness dolph provides is paltry to that. ]
I just hope it isn't what he thought. That it's . . . better.
The sound of his name almost pushes him over the edge. It ripples over his skin like a caress, that richness penetrating and sinking that love deep into him. How Erwin always knows how to communicate so many things just by saying his name is more like magic to him than any of the weird shit he's seen here, more intimate than touch.
He whimpers softly in response, the hand not at his mouth finally moving to find a light purchase in soft, golden hair. It doesn't push or pull, but just holds on, feeling the movement of Erwin's head with every dip and slide down onto his swollen dick. After a few passes, he catches the rhythm, and begins to roll his hips with it, shivering with the soft, silky slide of his husbands generous mouth. Levi can feel things tightening, climax rapidly approaching. It's only been a few minutes, but there's a faint sheen of sweat beginning to appear on his skin.
Suddenly, his breaths come a little faster, his hand tightening hard in Erwin's hair in warning, and soft little profanities fall from his lips.
"Fuck your fucking mouth Erwin-- I-- I'm--I'm gonna fucking cum--"
It's the only warning he's gonna get, so if Erwin doesn't want it in his mouth, he'd better act now.
And shortly after, Levi does come, thick and hard with a staggered moan offered up to the sky.
He whimpers softly in response, the hand not at his mouth finally moving to find a light purchase in soft, golden hair. It doesn't push or pull, but just holds on, feeling the movement of Erwin's head with every dip and slide down onto his swollen dick. After a few passes, he catches the rhythm, and begins to roll his hips with it, shivering with the soft, silky slide of his husbands generous mouth. Levi can feel things tightening, climax rapidly approaching. It's only been a few minutes, but there's a faint sheen of sweat beginning to appear on his skin.
Suddenly, his breaths come a little faster, his hand tightening hard in Erwin's hair in warning, and soft little profanities fall from his lips.
"Fuck your fucking mouth Erwin-- I-- I'm--I'm gonna fucking cum--"
It's the only warning he's gonna get, so if Erwin doesn't want it in his mouth, he'd better act now.
And shortly after, Levi does come, thick and hard with a staggered moan offered up to the sky.
... [ Levi reaches over and lays a hand on Dolph's real one, gives it a brief, gentle squeeze. ]
Maybe it is.
[ He won't offer any kind of certainty; there's no way to know, and neither of them could ever accept that sort of thing without proof. But that doesn't mean there's anything wrong in hoping for it. ]
When Tayrey left the first time, she'd said her wish had been fulfilled.
Maybe his was, too.
Maybe it is.
[ He won't offer any kind of certainty; there's no way to know, and neither of them could ever accept that sort of thing without proof. But that doesn't mean there's anything wrong in hoping for it. ]
When Tayrey left the first time, she'd said her wish had been fulfilled.
Maybe his was, too.
I don't think his wish . . . was survival.
[ it'd be nice to have both, but livio's wish had been for others. not for himself. if dolph looks inward . . . maybe his isn't either. what would happen if his wish was granted?
his hands tremble for a moment. ]
[ it'd be nice to have both, but livio's wish had been for others. not for himself. if dolph looks inward . . . maybe his isn't either. what would happen if his wish was granted?
his hands tremble for a moment. ]
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...I see.
[ He's quiet again for a few moments, letting that settle. There are too many unknowns, whether someone went back to being dead, if they got their wish, if they were somehow pulled to a different place entirely. In some ways, dead was easier than disappearing, knowing for someone's fate for certain, learning to make peace with it.
As Dolph's hands tremble, Levi just holds them with both of his own for a few moments. They're petite by comparison, with little white scars on some of the knuckles and fingertips, the back of the palm. He holds unflinchingly until the shaking seems to subside, then loosens his grip carefully. ]
He might come back sometime.
[ He's quiet again for a few moments, letting that settle. There are too many unknowns, whether someone went back to being dead, if they got their wish, if they were somehow pulled to a different place entirely. In some ways, dead was easier than disappearing, knowing for someone's fate for certain, learning to make peace with it.
As Dolph's hands tremble, Levi just holds them with both of his own for a few moments. They're petite by comparison, with little white scars on some of the knuckles and fingertips, the back of the palm. He holds unflinchingly until the shaking seems to subside, then loosens his grip carefully. ]
He might come back sometime.
He might.
[ but the rest doesn't need to be voiced. dolph exhales softly. it's painful but not the most painful. he'll miss him. livio was the most like him, with his implants and the way he was used by others. who didn't want to be fixed but just find a way through the cracks. who loved someone that broke his heart.
he manages a faint smile. ]
Three months wasn't so bad.
[ but the rest doesn't need to be voiced. dolph exhales softly. it's painful but not the most painful. he'll miss him. livio was the most like him, with his implants and the way he was used by others. who didn't want to be fixed but just find a way through the cracks. who loved someone that broke his heart.
he manages a faint smile. ]
Three months wasn't so bad.
[ It's good, that smile, even if it is small. Levi feels something ease, the more immediate weight of loss all the easier to carry. He gives one final squeeze of his hands before shifting back, letting them fall away. ]
Never had the chance to meet him. What was he like?
Never had the chance to meet him. What was he like?
He was shy sometimes. Everyone who met him liked him.
[ livio was kind. patient. thought poorly of himself, like dolph did. his gaze slides over to the broken chair. they had broken it and livio had been upset, but dolph hadn't cared.
he was on the cusp of it, perhaps. of loving livio. of even admitting it. maybe it's better if he didn't. maybe it's worse that he didn't. ]
I know Erwin did.
[ livio was kind. patient. thought poorly of himself, like dolph did. his gaze slides over to the broken chair. they had broken it and livio had been upset, but dolph hadn't cared.
he was on the cusp of it, perhaps. of loving livio. of even admitting it. maybe it's better if he didn't. maybe it's worse that he didn't. ]
I know Erwin did.
[ Granted, Erwin seemed to like a lot of people who could be considered questionable; Kimbley (who Levi weirdly missed, even if they hadn't really gotten along), Crowley; Levi himself. The man had a knack for finding the strange ones. But there were plenty of good people in there, too.
Still, it means something that Dolph says it.
Levi hums softly, and there's maybe the faintest, briefest curl at one corner of his lips. ]
Sorry I missed him.
[ He'd followed Dolph's gaze to the chair. ]
...what happened with that?
Still, it means something that Dolph says it.
Levi hums softly, and there's maybe the faintest, briefest curl at one corner of his lips. ]
Sorry I missed him.
[ He'd followed Dolph's gaze to the chair. ]
...what happened with that?
[ Luckily he doesn't care for any further details but-- ]
...he's a lot bigger than you?
[ How did he miss a guy who was half a Titan walking around?? Dolph is already noticeably taller than Erwin, who has a whole twelve inches / 28 centimeters on Levi as it is. ]
...he's a lot bigger than you?
[ How did he miss a guy who was half a Titan walking around?? Dolph is already noticeably taller than Erwin, who has a whole twelve inches / 28 centimeters on Levi as it is. ]
[ Levi isn't sure he'd count 'a couple inches' as 'a lot bigger', but certainly a lot bigger than him, and he imagines his neck starting to hurt just thinking about trying to maintain eye contact with someone a full foot and a half taller. ]
Huh. Guess they make them big in the places you both are from.
Huh. Guess they make them big in the places you both are from.
When Levi starts moving in kind with him, Erwin smiles around his cock. He knows how quickly Levi picks up on anything physical; he's not the slightest bit surprised that this is no different. He makes a soft humming sound, deep in his chest, and lets it reverberate up through his throat and into his mouth, onto Levi.
He's also not surprised at the sudden burst of profanity or how Levi clutches at his hair. Erwin wouldn't say it out loud, but he knows he's a damn good cocksucker, and he'd frankly be disappointed in himself if he didn't bring someone to climax relatively quickly. It didn't hurt that Levi was so keyed up and ready to go when he started, either.
There is no dodging, no attempt to get out of way. Erwin does the opposite: he plunges fully down on Levi's cock, letting his throat go lax as Levi shudders through his orgasm. It's only when it feels like Levi's done that Erwin swallows, his throat muscles constricting around the head of Levi's cock before he lifts his head up and off.
He has the dumbest, most pleased with himself look on his face. He is going to be insufferably smug about this for the next several days.
He's also not surprised at the sudden burst of profanity or how Levi clutches at his hair. Erwin wouldn't say it out loud, but he knows he's a damn good cocksucker, and he'd frankly be disappointed in himself if he didn't bring someone to climax relatively quickly. It didn't hurt that Levi was so keyed up and ready to go when he started, either.
There is no dodging, no attempt to get out of way. Erwin does the opposite: he plunges fully down on Levi's cock, letting his throat go lax as Levi shudders through his orgasm. It's only when it feels like Levi's done that Erwin swallows, his throat muscles constricting around the head of Levi's cock before he lifts his head up and off.
He has the dumbest, most pleased with himself look on his face. He is going to be insufferably smug about this for the next several days.
Yeah. Sounded like she was a prisoner for a while.
[ She'd never liked to talk about it much, and he hadn't pressed. Suffice to say, it sounded like hell. Even so, Levi remembers Tayrey becoming more and more homesick in the last few months before her first disappearance. It's probably better for her, now.
He appreciates Eren saying it anyway. ]
If she's home and happy, then good.
[ She'd never liked to talk about it much, and he hadn't pressed. Suffice to say, it sounded like hell. Even so, Levi remembers Tayrey becoming more and more homesick in the last few months before her first disappearance. It's probably better for her, now.
He appreciates Eren saying it anyway. ]
If she's home and happy, then good.
Eren looks no more dopey than a real wolf or dog, and since that's an expected thing, it doesn't strike Levi as odd at all. If anything, it's a good thing, to see him enjoying himself, even as a mutt. Maybe that's the benefit of being able to change into an animal, to let go of too much thought and just rely on instinct.
Levi tracks Eren to where he's found the last box, exactly where he'd buried it, and maybe even cracks the faintest of pleased smiles. It's more in his eyes than anything, but he gives Eren another encouraging ruffle, shows him the stopwatch, paused with three seconds remaining.
"well done, Eren."
He retrieves the box, and inside is indeed Erwin's sock.
"Sorry, didn't bring you any mutt treats," he says as they make their way back to the clearing. "You'll have to be satisfied with some cookies Erwin made, later."
Levi tracks Eren to where he's found the last box, exactly where he'd buried it, and maybe even cracks the faintest of pleased smiles. It's more in his eyes than anything, but he gives Eren another encouraging ruffle, shows him the stopwatch, paused with three seconds remaining.
"well done, Eren."
He retrieves the box, and inside is indeed Erwin's sock.
"Sorry, didn't bring you any mutt treats," he says as they make their way back to the clearing. "You'll have to be satisfied with some cookies Erwin made, later."
[ Levi is well aware that he is short by most human standards (it's the childhood malnutrition), but even Erwin is considered fairly tall in their world. ]
Well you're all halfway to a Titan to me anyway.
[ Which is his way of saying he doesn't much care one way or the other. ]
Well you're all halfway to a Titan to me anyway.
[ Which is his way of saying he doesn't much care one way or the other. ]
[ his lips twitch slightly. ]
Guess we are.
I never thought about it before.
[ being tall, short. he had other reasons for not fitting in. the same goes for livio. it's coming to places like these that such thoughts strike them. he glances back at the chair. ]
And it's not important. I just wish he hadn't felt so bad about it. The thing about being modified is just . . . the way you see yourself becomes distorted.
Guess we are.
I never thought about it before.
[ being tall, short. he had other reasons for not fitting in. the same goes for livio. it's coming to places like these that such thoughts strike them. he glances back at the chair. ]
And it's not important. I just wish he hadn't felt so bad about it. The thing about being modified is just . . . the way you see yourself becomes distorted.
[Eh...He's really not very good at this sort of thing.]
I figure she must be. Still kinda sucks though.
[...what exactly does he have to offer, here? He really can't tell whether or not Levi's upset, but he knows by now that Levi feels more than he lets on...]
Tayrey spoke really highly of you, you know.
I figure she must be. Still kinda sucks though.
[...what exactly does he have to offer, here? He really can't tell whether or not Levi's upset, but he knows by now that Levi feels more than he lets on...]
Tayrey spoke really highly of you, you know.
[Eren hasn't necessarily acknowledged why there are nights he'll spend hours wandering around in this form. Levi's instincts are correct, though. It's easier, this way, to find some semblance of peace.
[When Eren sees the stopwatch, paused with only three seconds remaining, he rears up on his hind legs and howls in victory. Flump. Back on the ground, and then they're on their way to the clearing.
[He doesn't look disappointed at the lack of treats, at least, merely nodding his big furry head.]
[When Eren sees the stopwatch, paused with only three seconds remaining, he rears up on his hind legs and howls in victory. Flump. Back on the ground, and then they're on their way to the clearing.
[He doesn't look disappointed at the lack of treats, at least, merely nodding his big furry head.]
[ Tall people rarely do, in his experience. ]
[ Modified...being born with a power that awakens in a moment of intense stress isn't quite the same as having your body altered by someone else. Different from most people, even if on him it was harder to see. They hadn't asked for it, but no one had physically changed him, unlike Dolph. And Livio, apparently. ]
That happened to him too, huh. Sounds like you had a lot to talk about.
[ Modified...being born with a power that awakens in a moment of intense stress isn't quite the same as having your body altered by someone else. Different from most people, even if on him it was harder to see. They hadn't asked for it, but no one had physically changed him, unlike Dolph. And Livio, apparently. ]
That happened to him too, huh. Sounds like you had a lot to talk about.
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