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[ It's even harder to tell when it's just through a written message; Eren can't see the expressions that shift subtly on Levi's face, the knit of his brow or the soft frown on his lips.
That Eren wanted to reach out is already meaningful, but the last comment shifts against a deeper pain, and can't help the flash of memory of Petra's father approaching him as they walked through the gate--
there's a longer pause before his reply this time. ]
Don't know what I keep doing that makes you brats talk like that.
[ Maybe it had something to do with saving her from mind flayers, Levi. ]
That Eren wanted to reach out is already meaningful, but the last comment shifts against a deeper pain, and can't help the flash of memory of Petra's father approaching him as they walked through the gate--
there's a longer pause before his reply this time. ]
Don't know what I keep doing that makes you brats talk like that.
[ Maybe it had something to do with saving her from mind flayers, Levi. ]
Maybe they could start going for walks together-
Levi picks up the ball and CHUCKS it again.
They'll keep going with that for a little while until he wears Eren out again, and that'll probably be it for the day. Another time they can test out Eren's bite strength and maybe play tug-of-war with some rope. Wolfren against Humanity's Strongest, who will win???
Levi picks up the ball and CHUCKS it again.
They'll keep going with that for a little while until he wears Eren out again, and that'll probably be it for the day. Another time they can test out Eren's bite strength and maybe play tug-of-war with some rope. Wolfren against Humanity's Strongest, who will win???
She needed help, I could do something about it, that's all.
[ Erwin had drawn off the mindflayers as a distraction and then gotten his brain fucked up as a result. There was no point in questioning his own decision at the time, or Erwin's, and Levi certainly didn't blame Tayrey for it. But that was the last time he'd really had to fight anything of consequence, and it was months ago.
It's odd, to realize it. ]
Once, maybe, but you saved us more than anything I did. Think Erwin has me beat on the saving you thing, though.
[ Maybe not physically, but it's Erwin's plans that have kept Eren out of the hands of the MPs. ]
[ Erwin had drawn off the mindflayers as a distraction and then gotten his brain fucked up as a result. There was no point in questioning his own decision at the time, or Erwin's, and Levi certainly didn't blame Tayrey for it. But that was the last time he'd really had to fight anything of consequence, and it was months ago.
It's odd, to realize it. ]
Once, maybe, but you saved us more than anything I did. Think Erwin has me beat on the saving you thing, though.
[ Maybe not physically, but it's Erwin's plans that have kept Eren out of the hands of the MPs. ]
[Eren hasn’t been thinking all that much about the lives he managed to save recently…It’s weird to see it spelled out like that. How many of those people ended up dying because of him in the long run?
[This isn’t about that…]
It mattered to her. That’s all.
Saving a life is a pretty big deal to the person who gets to keep living.
[This isn’t about that…]
It mattered to her. That’s all.
Saving a life is a pretty big deal to the person who gets to keep living.
Erwin is a damn good cocksucker - not that Levi has any basis for comparison, but it's clearly not anywhere close to his first time. Maybe he should be embarrassed for coming so quickly, but it's actually something of a relief. Something longer and more drawn out had the higher chance of his brain catching up with him, maybe, of longer pauses letting sensations other than pleasure settle in.
It's only after he finishes shooting his load that he realizes Erwin didn't pull away, that last little squeeze as he swallows pulling a soft whine from the back of his throat. Fuck. He should find it disgusting, but the little haziness that seems to envelop both mind and body after orgasm, his brain just clocks it as hot.
For a few moments, Levi just lays there, chest rising and falling with soft, even pants until adrenaline and arousal begin to even out. Gray eyes finally crack open, staring somewhat unfocused at the ceiling. He can feel Erwin still situated between his legs, fingers looser in his hair now, and even without looking he can imagine his expression. It practically radiates off him. A heaviness settles into his limbs, relaxed, almost serene, to the point where it's almost a chore to lift his head finally just to look down to see him.
Swollen red lips and bright blue eyes and disgustingly pleased with himself.
Levi huffs, the sound more a mixture of affection and amusement than annoyance. He scruffs his hand through Erwin's hair, fingers scratching at the soft undercut at the back of his head.
"Don't have to ask how it was for you, huh. You got someone else sucking you off at the same time?"
It's only after he finishes shooting his load that he realizes Erwin didn't pull away, that last little squeeze as he swallows pulling a soft whine from the back of his throat. Fuck. He should find it disgusting, but the little haziness that seems to envelop both mind and body after orgasm, his brain just clocks it as hot.
For a few moments, Levi just lays there, chest rising and falling with soft, even pants until adrenaline and arousal begin to even out. Gray eyes finally crack open, staring somewhat unfocused at the ceiling. He can feel Erwin still situated between his legs, fingers looser in his hair now, and even without looking he can imagine his expression. It practically radiates off him. A heaviness settles into his limbs, relaxed, almost serene, to the point where it's almost a chore to lift his head finally just to look down to see him.
Swollen red lips and bright blue eyes and disgustingly pleased with himself.
Levi huffs, the sound more a mixture of affection and amusement than annoyance. He scruffs his hand through Erwin's hair, fingers scratching at the soft undercut at the back of his head.
"Don't have to ask how it was for you, huh. You got someone else sucking you off at the same time?"
[...]
Could I come sweep today instead of tomorrow? I made plans by mistake.
[If Captain Levi wants to be alone, then he'll say no. If he doesn't want to be alone, then...(He thinks he's being slick - as if him abruptly changing the heaviest topic in the world isn't extremely obvious.)]
Could I come sweep today instead of tomorrow? I made plans by mistake.
[If Captain Levi wants to be alone, then he'll say no. If he doesn't want to be alone, then...(He thinks he's being slick - as if him abruptly changing the heaviest topic in the world isn't extremely obvious.)]
[ Levi doesn't respond, but there's tea waiting for Eren when he does arrive. He's taken to making a slightly sweeter variation of his preferred black teas by adding a little bit of honey and milk, since both are abundant here. It still feels a little indulgent, but it seems appropriate now, and there's something comforting about tea with a little cream.
He's sitting on the couch with one of Erwin's poem books when Eren knocks, and he just calls out for him to enter instead of getting up. ]
Drink the tea before you start so it doesn't get cold.
He's sitting on the couch with one of Erwin's poem books when Eren knocks, and he just calls out for him to enter instead of getting up. ]
Drink the tea before you start so it doesn't get cold.
[Tea before sweeping. He is lonely. Eren can drink it real slow. It's good to appreciate tea, right? Is that something Levi values?
[Eren takes his tea and a seat in a nearby chair. He tilts his head a little at the poetry book in Levi's hand. Eren saw on Sleepr that Erwin was reading poetry lately. Eren really...can't see much of a point to that at all. None of his business, he supposes.]
I still haven't gotten used to tea like this. It's the only way I really drink it now, but still.
[Eren takes his tea and a seat in a nearby chair. He tilts his head a little at the poetry book in Levi's hand. Eren saw on Sleepr that Erwin was reading poetry lately. Eren really...can't see much of a point to that at all. None of his business, he supposes.]
I still haven't gotten used to tea like this. It's the only way I really drink it now, but still.
[ Eren's off on thinking that Levi is lonely when he has two partners and a gaggle of the young adults to look after - he's doing quite well there, thanks very much. But at this point they've circled around and now he's under the impression that it's Eren who needs some kind of comforting, or something -- or at the very least, he seems to want to spend time together right now, and Levi has no real reason or desire to put him off.
Appreciating tea is nice - fast or slow, so long as it doesn't go to waste. That's the real sin.
He sets aside the book - it's something Erwin has been reading to him lately, and while Levi usually prefers to listen to Erwin recite, it's nice to go back and read them for himself sometimes, too. ]
Yeah, feels like we should be blackmailing someone to get our hands on stuff this good. Damned accountants sometimes tried to get Erwin in trouble for buying the good stuff.
Appreciating tea is nice - fast or slow, so long as it doesn't go to waste. That's the real sin.
He sets aside the book - it's something Erwin has been reading to him lately, and while Levi usually prefers to listen to Erwin recite, it's nice to go back and read them for himself sometimes, too. ]
Yeah, feels like we should be blackmailing someone to get our hands on stuff this good. Damned accountants sometimes tried to get Erwin in trouble for buying the good stuff.
That's how it feels with everything here. It's weird.
[Not bad, but weird in a way that...sometimes makes Eren feel bad. Like he's being gluttonous or something. For as excited as he can get about food in this place, he still can't manage to finish it most of the time. It's all so rich.]
Whatever good stuff was back home, I bet that's just standard here.
[Sure, this isn't really what he came here to talk about, but some lead up might be necessary, right? Maybe he was stupid for thinking he'd be able to read Captain Levi any better in person.]
[Not bad, but weird in a way that...sometimes makes Eren feel bad. Like he's being gluttonous or something. For as excited as he can get about food in this place, he still can't manage to finish it most of the time. It's all so rich.]
Whatever good stuff was back home, I bet that's just standard here.
[Sure, this isn't really what he came here to talk about, but some lead up might be necessary, right? Maybe he was stupid for thinking he'd be able to read Captain Levi any better in person.]
Erwin waits for Levi to come back to himself, watching him with a lazy, satisfied expression. Seeing the slow come-down, the way Levi gradually relaxes and unspools, is almost as enticing as the actual act they've just performed. It's especially good because Levi so rarely lets himself relax, lets himself be undone. The fact that he trusts Erwin enough to let him get so close is turn-on enough on its own.
"No, there's no one here but us." For the first time, Erwin pays attention to his own groin, which is wound tight as a spring and aching. Yes, he enjoyed that just as much as Levi, but without the release at the end. His cock is tenting the front of his pants, and throbbing along with his heartbeat.
He leans his head into Levi's hand, closing his eyes and smiling for a moment. "I may ask you for a literal hand in a few moments."
Even more pleased with his dumb joke, Erwin gently pushes back and stands up. The motion makes the tent in his pants obvious, but he ignores it, instead turning and heading towards the bathroom. "But right now, I'm going to go brush my teeth."
He's not bothered by the taste or gluey feeling in his mouth at all; in fact, Erwin rather likes it. He knows, however, that he's not getting any kisses or cuddles from Levi until he cleans things up, so it's off to the bathroom for a quick brush and gargle.
"No, there's no one here but us." For the first time, Erwin pays attention to his own groin, which is wound tight as a spring and aching. Yes, he enjoyed that just as much as Levi, but without the release at the end. His cock is tenting the front of his pants, and throbbing along with his heartbeat.
He leans his head into Levi's hand, closing his eyes and smiling for a moment. "I may ask you for a literal hand in a few moments."
Even more pleased with his dumb joke, Erwin gently pushes back and stands up. The motion makes the tent in his pants obvious, but he ignores it, instead turning and heading towards the bathroom. "But right now, I'm going to go brush my teeth."
He's not bothered by the taste or gluey feeling in his mouth at all; in fact, Erwin rather likes it. He knows, however, that he's not getting any kisses or cuddles from Levi until he cleans things up, so it's off to the bathroom for a quick brush and gargle.
For that moment, they share a softness that had rarely been afforded before, though they can better borrow against it now. Neither of them are good at slowing down, relaxing - always having to be in motion, chasing after something. But this little moment, with Erwin's cheek in his palm and nothing weighing them down, Levi burns into his heart.
Well, if a little cocksucking is all it takes, maybe it wouldn't be so bad to do it again.
Especially because he gets an eyeful of that very obvious bulge, and that sends a fresh tingling into his spine. He'd been joking, about Erwin enjoying it so much. Apparently he hadn't been that far off the mark. Well. He'll have to do something about that.
But what really has his heart stuttering to a halt is the man taking himself immediately off to the bathroom to wash, without Levi even having to say anything. There's no even joking attempt to kiss him, or even touch him, just a clear understanding and anticipation of his asks. He shouldn't be surprised - Erwin has always been happy to accommodate his preferences, as fussy and neurotic as they could be, but...it's still...incredible, to not even have to prompt or remind him.
His heart pounds a little harder in his chest as he stares after that golden head, naked on the bed, suddenly alone. It's now that everything starts to catch up with him - sweat on his skin, his cock softening and still slick from Erwin's mouth. There's a film on him that he needs to get off, a feeling that won't go away until he scrubs at his skin. But there's no point in doing that until Erwin gets taken care of.
So Levi slides to his feet, padding softly across the room to the bathroom, and leans lazily in the door frame as his husband finishes cleaning his mouth. Maybe it's fucking weird, because he's a fucking weirdo, but that alone somehow seems to be also rekindling his interest. As soon as Erwin finishes, Levi pushes into his space, cupping one hand at the back of his neck and one hand to the front of his pants, over his erection, rubbing generously.
"Gonna make me so fucking hot all over again, doing that." Brushing his teeth? Maybe. "Now kiss me."
And in case he doesn't get the memo, Levi will drag him in to press their lips together, squeezing at the shape of him through his pants.
Well, if a little cocksucking is all it takes, maybe it wouldn't be so bad to do it again.
Especially because he gets an eyeful of that very obvious bulge, and that sends a fresh tingling into his spine. He'd been joking, about Erwin enjoying it so much. Apparently he hadn't been that far off the mark. Well. He'll have to do something about that.
But what really has his heart stuttering to a halt is the man taking himself immediately off to the bathroom to wash, without Levi even having to say anything. There's no even joking attempt to kiss him, or even touch him, just a clear understanding and anticipation of his asks. He shouldn't be surprised - Erwin has always been happy to accommodate his preferences, as fussy and neurotic as they could be, but...it's still...incredible, to not even have to prompt or remind him.
His heart pounds a little harder in his chest as he stares after that golden head, naked on the bed, suddenly alone. It's now that everything starts to catch up with him - sweat on his skin, his cock softening and still slick from Erwin's mouth. There's a film on him that he needs to get off, a feeling that won't go away until he scrubs at his skin. But there's no point in doing that until Erwin gets taken care of.
So Levi slides to his feet, padding softly across the room to the bathroom, and leans lazily in the door frame as his husband finishes cleaning his mouth. Maybe it's fucking weird, because he's a fucking weirdo, but that alone somehow seems to be also rekindling his interest. As soon as Erwin finishes, Levi pushes into his space, cupping one hand at the back of his neck and one hand to the front of his pants, over his erection, rubbing generously.
"Gonna make me so fucking hot all over again, doing that." Brushing his teeth? Maybe. "Now kiss me."
And in case he doesn't get the memo, Levi will drag him in to press their lips together, squeezing at the shape of him through his pants.
[Eren comes to sweep on Saturday as usual. His mind is on anything but today's date. There will be a party later this week, but he's more or less forgotten why. Jean said to be home a little early for dinner. Sure. He will be.
[But first, this. It's the first time he'll have seen Levi since he entered the labyrinth - since he lived the future.
[He's not himself. He can't be. He's never been good at pretending. In the future, this cold, hollow emptiness will be half for show, but not so now. He lets himself in, as is allowed, and searches for Levi. In greeting, a salute against his chest that he's not sure he's allowed to mean anymore.]
Sir.
[But first, this. It's the first time he'll have seen Levi since he entered the labyrinth - since he lived the future.
[He's not himself. He can't be. He's never been good at pretending. In the future, this cold, hollow emptiness will be half for show, but not so now. He lets himself in, as is allowed, and searches for Levi. In greeting, a salute against his chest that he's not sure he's allowed to mean anymore.]
Sir.
Erwin has a mouthful of toothpaste bubbles--which is one of the early things they discovered here, and immediately adopted, toothpaste and mouthwash--when he hears Levi pad to the bathroom door. He glances over at him and nods, but doesn't try speaking, lest he sprays toothpaste globs everywhere. They've just shared a very pleasant experience, and he doesn't want to ruin it by making a mess in the bathroom.
Erwin turns towards Levi when he comes in, expecting a hug or cuddle, and then they can go back to the bed and spoon for awhile, until Erwin calms down. Levi, it appears, has other plans, and Erwin is both surprised and delighted when Levi starts stroking him through his pants.
"What, brushing my teeth?" If that's what got Levi going again, okay! Erwin doesn't really get it, but he's happy to comply. He lets Levi drag him down for a kiss, which will be minty-fresh and clean, and Erwin wraps his arms around him, trailing his fingers up and down Levi's spine. He moans softly against Levi's lips as he's stroked, canting his hips forward and pressing himself into Levi's hand.
If Levi keeps that up, Erwin won't last long at all.
Erwin turns towards Levi when he comes in, expecting a hug or cuddle, and then they can go back to the bed and spoon for awhile, until Erwin calms down. Levi, it appears, has other plans, and Erwin is both surprised and delighted when Levi starts stroking him through his pants.
"What, brushing my teeth?" If that's what got Levi going again, okay! Erwin doesn't really get it, but he's happy to comply. He lets Levi drag him down for a kiss, which will be minty-fresh and clean, and Erwin wraps his arms around him, trailing his fingers up and down Levi's spine. He moans softly against Levi's lips as he's stroked, canting his hips forward and pressing himself into Levi's hand.
If Levi keeps that up, Erwin won't last long at all.
Surprised we all haven't gotten fat. Rich food, no Titans to chase around. Gonna turn into pigs ourselves if we're not careful.
[ There's no real chance of that, because none of them are truly gluttonous. Levi's filled out a little bit himself - some lines are a little softer, but in a lot of ways, he feels better. Funny how having regular access to a more balanced diet will do that for a person. He still trains, because he can't sit still for long, although Erwin has been less active. That's fine; the man deserves to rest. ]
So what's going on in that head of yours?
[ Seems like you have more things to say, Eren, so: out with it. ]
[ There's no real chance of that, because none of them are truly gluttonous. Levi's filled out a little bit himself - some lines are a little softer, but in a lot of ways, he feels better. Funny how having regular access to a more balanced diet will do that for a person. He still trains, because he can't sit still for long, although Erwin has been less active. That's fine; the man deserves to rest. ]
So what's going on in that head of yours?
[ Seems like you have more things to say, Eren, so: out with it. ]
Maybe he should make Erwin rinse his mouth before they kiss more often. The lingering taste of it isn't unpleasant - far better than what it might otherwise have been if he hadn't, so that alone makes him happy. But it's very clear Levi definitely has other plans, arching into the touches along his spine. He's not interested again for his own sake...yet...but it's possible his body could be persuaded again, in short order.
Really, his goal is pretty simple.
He teases Erwin with another rub or two before his hands start pulling at his clothes, belt and closures of his pants, tugging the hem of his shirt upwards to press his palms to warm skin. It's clear that his objective is to get Erwin just as naked as he is, longing suddenly to just be skin to skin with him. Perhaps having his cock sucked flipped some kind of switch in his brain, or maybe whatever is tripping his desire from earlier just hasn't left him. Whatever it is, he's stripping Erwin's clothes away, kissing him, scraping nails over skin. As tempting as it is to just jerk him off right here, there's a perfectly good shower nearby.
Levi allows himself a few minutes of feeling up Erwin's chest, leaving a few hot kisses to his skin before forcing himself away long enough to flip on the water, letting it run to hot. Stepping in carefully, he looks back at his husband, expectant.
"Coming?"
Really, his goal is pretty simple.
He teases Erwin with another rub or two before his hands start pulling at his clothes, belt and closures of his pants, tugging the hem of his shirt upwards to press his palms to warm skin. It's clear that his objective is to get Erwin just as naked as he is, longing suddenly to just be skin to skin with him. Perhaps having his cock sucked flipped some kind of switch in his brain, or maybe whatever is tripping his desire from earlier just hasn't left him. Whatever it is, he's stripping Erwin's clothes away, kissing him, scraping nails over skin. As tempting as it is to just jerk him off right here, there's a perfectly good shower nearby.
Levi allows himself a few minutes of feeling up Erwin's chest, leaving a few hot kisses to his skin before forcing himself away long enough to flip on the water, letting it run to hot. Stepping in carefully, he looks back at his husband, expectant.
"Coming?"
Yeah...I'm sure it was.
[ Especially for someone who seems to feel so outside everyone else...it must be hard, losing that.
Levi isn't prone to something that could be called hopeful thoughts, but he can't seem to not try offering some - it's not often that people return...but it's not unheard of, either. ]
Maybe he'll come back, someday.
[ Especially for someone who seems to feel so outside everyone else...it must be hard, losing that.
Levi isn't prone to something that could be called hopeful thoughts, but he can't seem to not try offering some - it's not often that people return...but it's not unheard of, either. ]
Maybe he'll come back, someday.
Once Erwin figures out what Levi wants, he helps as much as he can, dealing with buttons and belt buckles as quickly as possible. It's always a little difficult to strip down when he's bent forward to kiss his husband, but he can make it work.
When Levi pulls away to step into the shower, Erwin sees where things are going. He finishes with his few remaining scraps of clothing, and then starts fumbling with the straps across his chest that hold his arm in place.
"As quick as I can." He's had some practice by now at getting his arm on and off in a hurry, and can manage the buckles with one hand. The arm disengages from his stump with a soft hiss and a crackle of electricity, and Erwin lays it carefully on the bathroom counter. He rolls his shoulders, taking that second to adjust to his changed center of gravity, then steps into the shower with Levi. The water sluices off him, and Erwin arranges himself so he's not blocking all the water stream.
He's down to one hand now, but it's enough to put it on the small of Levi's back and pull him in close for another kiss.
When Levi pulls away to step into the shower, Erwin sees where things are going. He finishes with his few remaining scraps of clothing, and then starts fumbling with the straps across his chest that hold his arm in place.
"As quick as I can." He's had some practice by now at getting his arm on and off in a hurry, and can manage the buckles with one hand. The arm disengages from his stump with a soft hiss and a crackle of electricity, and Erwin lays it carefully on the bathroom counter. He rolls his shoulders, taking that second to adjust to his changed center of gravity, then steps into the shower with Levi. The water sluices off him, and Erwin arranges himself so he's not blocking all the water stream.
He's down to one hand now, but it's enough to put it on the small of Levi's back and pull him in close for another kiss.
[ dolph cradles his mug. coming back . . . would that be a good thing? is he allowed to nurture that selfish wish?
he wonders now, if he met vaeros, would the shape of his wish be different? you know there are no happy endings for us. he pushes it aside. alex was wrong. he was wrong.
so dolph nods slowly, letting the warmth seep through the metal in his arm. ]
Maybe he will. On his own terms.
[ maybe livio will find a reason to live. ]
he wonders now, if he met vaeros, would the shape of his wish be different? you know there are no happy endings for us. he pushes it aside. alex was wrong. he was wrong.
so dolph nods slowly, letting the warmth seep through the metal in his arm. ]
Maybe he will. On his own terms.
[ maybe livio will find a reason to live. ]
[Eren spends almost his entire day either training or walking all over town to deliver food (or cleaning vigorously with a broom). He's filled out a little too, but he's definitely not worried about turning into a pig.
[At Levi's question, there's a lopsided frown. Caught, huh? He really doesn't know how else to put it, and there's no point in lying to Captain Levi, so...]
I was kinda worried about you. I guess.
[Can't quite look him in the eye. It still feels like a breach of the chain of command to say that sort of thing, somehow. Eren barely knew Levi before he came here, really. It's just hard to see him with no pedestal, and Eren honestly doesn't.]
[At Levi's question, there's a lopsided frown. Caught, huh? He really doesn't know how else to put it, and there's no point in lying to Captain Levi, so...]
I was kinda worried about you. I guess.
[Can't quite look him in the eye. It still feels like a breach of the chain of command to say that sort of thing, somehow. Eren barely knew Levi before he came here, really. It's just hard to see him with no pedestal, and Eren honestly doesn't.]
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